The Purveyor

I have learned to just ask... God, I need money for this trip. God, I really need my summer job at Deer Run back this summer. God, I really want a yearbook and the school sold out. God, I need things like bedding, toothpaste, soap, and summer clothes for this trip. Oh, and my hair iron broke... need a new one.

Asking God for things I want and need has always flashed in my mind... but I only just realized... though it occurred to me to ask him for things... I never really did... maybe I thought I had... or maybe I thought it showed weakness, so I would kinda just let him know I needed something, that way he knew what I needed and I didn't have to come out and ask him... that way I didn't have to bother him with little things and he could choose to accommodate me or not. Asking my parents for things in the past has always either made me sick to my stomach or just made me feel really bad... it shows my weakness of not being to be able to provide for myself. I hate asking them for things... they have 8 other people asking for things... things they really need or want too.

Finally, I realized... I need this money. I need it, and my parents aren't going to be able to provide for all of it by themselves. Why cant I just ask God for it... I mean, he has the means to provide for it all.. and MORE! ...and doesn't he want to provide for me? I mean... this trip is all about our relationship? why wouldn't he want to provide it for me, for us?

So I asked Him. God, I need money for this trip, please help me get it. The next day I asked him again, with more faith than the day before that he would provide. And then I asked him again the next day, and so on. Though I didn't see much money come in at first, I had a really great friend tell me something, "Bekah, have you ever seen that Narnia movie, Prince Caspian? Well, though the kids had faith Aslan would show up to conquer the army attacking them, they had to call out and ask him to come, but they also had to work in the mean time. But when he did show up, he didn't just conquer the other army, he destroyed them, and had means to destroy them again if he had to." What she said was a metaphor for what was bothering me... I had to ask God for money, but I also had to work in the mean time with faith that he would make my efforts plentiful and that they would multiply.

I was sitting in AP Psychology when God told me to write down everything that was sitting in the front of my mind, things that only he could provide. 1) Money for the trip. 2) My job at Deer Run. 3) A yearbook.

God, please provide all the money I need for this trip. God, please provide my Job. God, please get me a yearbook. These are the things I asked Him for... again and again.

Days later, the school called... they had an extra yearbook for me. A little over a week later.... "Bekah, can you start working with us again this summer?- Fred." Three weeks later...God showed himself to me again by giving me the $1,000 I needed by June 7th. And I know he will provide the rest... I just have to keep trusting in Him, asking Him, and keep working.

Some things have come up... Im going to have to provide everyday things for myself while I am in Kona, and I wont be able to get a job to do that. This trip is all about watching God provide... about talking to him, about making him my best friend, about making him REAL. I know he is going to provide the other $7,000 and more! You know how I know? I asked him too, and I have been working in the mean time... :) ....Well, off to my job at Deer Run!

May our King bring you riches! ...whatever that looks like to you, keep asking and working :)
A Warrior for the King,
Bekah